He asked me if I'd like to come over to his place for some iced tea or something, and I must have sounded pretty eager, because he laughed at me. I told him about my high school experiences and the long interlude during which I hadn't thought about men at all. He'd been married – his wife had died of cancer a few years earlier – but had always known he was more into men than women. My cock was rock hard, as it had been for most of the day. Phil maneuvered me, never breaking the kiss, down a short hallway to his bedroom, before pressing me on my back against the chenille spread of his double bed.
We got into the van again and continued talking all the way to his modest house in a modest neighborhood. "Would you mind ducking down when we get close to my driveway? "The bottom line for me is that I like sex, and I'm more interested in what's between my partner's ears than what's between my partner's legs," I said. Our bodies pressed against each other as we explored one another's mouths. He got a leg between mine and we began to grind against each other as our passion grew.
I was excited at the prospect of a new lover and by the fact that I would, possibly, get some "action" on this trip. I did later, however, and it eventually proved fatal to our friendship.
We had agreed to meet on a certain street corner near a certain large Midwestern university at a certain time. I do not cruise and I do not, knowingly, have sex with people who do. I had hoped that we would end the evening horizontal and superimposed. He asked me if I would like to go with him to a nature preserve the next day, a Saturday, and I said I would. The next day came and I made my preparations carefully. I was as clean as I could be, inside and out, freshly shaved, and smelling like (I hoped) someone who was expecting to get laid.
Time after times, we are here, those realities never go away, and will not, until the end of times. “Race” before “character.” Flawed ideologies, but yes, White women, and as a mother of bi-racial children, which of course you will be, it would be your duties to protect them, love them, make them proud of being uniquely partly White and beautiful partly Black.